“I could be such a great robot if it weren’t for living in a body.” Oh my word, I felt so much of this essay on my bones. Thank you for sharing your messy closet with us. Even in the midst of the mess, your writing hits home. Grace and peace as you attend to your needs. Be gentle with yourself (Is. 40:11).
I feel all this in my bones. All of august has felt like I’m barely keeping my head above water so this post felt very timely. I hope you are able to recharge and rest Annelise.
I’m a fellow “bake instead of do the thing” person, all my university essays were written the night before they were due. The other day I was complaining to my husband how I didn’t have time to get everything done, then he came into the kitchen and found me about to start icing a carrot cake at 9pm, and he quite rightly pointed out that this is partly why I feel like I don’t have time to get anything done. “Becca, does the carrot cake need icing? ABSOLUTELY NOT”
lol! The poor husbands. I made some comment to mine about the “slow down” message feeling like being hit over the head (this after I woke up with a round of pinkeye to add to the death cold) and his wry response was, “It does seem to be the only way you listen…” 🤦♀️
Appreciate your post, Annelise. I too have trouble rearrangin' things, often because I don't know where things are supposed to go. I think it's OK. Enjoy your photos.
I continue to be surprised at how being over-competent at life keeps backfiring on me. If it wasn't for emotions my life would really tick over completely fine! But also, I'm so tired because I do everything so competently why would anyone think anything is wrong? Anyway....just a couple months behind you in the cycle...
“But also, I'm so tired because I do everything so competently why would anyone think anything is wrong?“
THIS. I have been through phases where I desperately wished for someone to drop in on me randomly so they would see what I actually felt like. It’s like a prison of your own making. Kept you safe and now keeps you lonely. Sigh. Hang in there.
I cannot get my brain to formulate the thoughts because I am currently too pregnant and congested 😂 But I have written some *brilliant*, *scathing*, editorials on the topic, in my head, between blowing my nose and telling everyone to be quiet.
This whole thing about being body-soul unities… it’s so inconvenient sometimes! Praying for you every day. I hope the break is a real break as much as possible!
I could copy and paste this piece onto my own Substack and it would 100% reflect how I'm feeling. I appreciate your post and hope you can muddle through amd make sense of everything you're feeling x
“And while it’s easier to be angry, most of the time I need to give myself the space to be sad.” Okay, who sent you to read my mail? Praying it’s a fruitful month off for you.
Love that you know yourself well enough to know where it leads. Glad you are taking time to rest and process. Even this is helpful, just modeling that we are not machines. We are people. We have bodies. And we need to listen to them. 🧡
“I could be such a great robot if it weren’t for living in a body.” Oh my word, I felt so much of this essay on my bones. Thank you for sharing your messy closet with us. Even in the midst of the mess, your writing hits home. Grace and peace as you attend to your needs. Be gentle with yourself (Is. 40:11).
That is the line that resonated most with me, too! Ahh!
So many of us could be such wonderful robots, but I think I’m thankful it’s not what we’re meant for, even when it’s a real pain in the you know what.
I feel all this in my bones. All of august has felt like I’m barely keeping my head above water so this post felt very timely. I hope you are able to recharge and rest Annelise.
I’m a fellow “bake instead of do the thing” person, all my university essays were written the night before they were due. The other day I was complaining to my husband how I didn’t have time to get everything done, then he came into the kitchen and found me about to start icing a carrot cake at 9pm, and he quite rightly pointed out that this is partly why I feel like I don’t have time to get anything done. “Becca, does the carrot cake need icing? ABSOLUTELY NOT”
lol! The poor husbands. I made some comment to mine about the “slow down” message feeling like being hit over the head (this after I woke up with a round of pinkeye to add to the death cold) and his wry response was, “It does seem to be the only way you listen…” 🤦♀️
Appreciate your post, Annelise. I too have trouble rearrangin' things, often because I don't know where things are supposed to go. I think it's OK. Enjoy your photos.
*sobs into hands*
I continue to be surprised at how being over-competent at life keeps backfiring on me. If it wasn't for emotions my life would really tick over completely fine! But also, I'm so tired because I do everything so competently why would anyone think anything is wrong? Anyway....just a couple months behind you in the cycle...
“But also, I'm so tired because I do everything so competently why would anyone think anything is wrong?“
THIS. I have been through phases where I desperately wished for someone to drop in on me randomly so they would see what I actually felt like. It’s like a prison of your own making. Kept you safe and now keeps you lonely. Sigh. Hang in there.
I can relate to this way too much. Glad to know I’m not the only one in the high-functioning overcoming perfectionist club.
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I cannot get my brain to formulate the thoughts because I am currently too pregnant and congested 😂 But I have written some *brilliant*, *scathing*, editorials on the topic, in my head, between blowing my nose and telling everyone to be quiet.
This whole thing about being body-soul unities… it’s so inconvenient sometimes! Praying for you every day. I hope the break is a real break as much as possible!
So inconvenient. So necessary. And thank you, I really appreciate it!
I could never be a great robot. :-P Enjoy your September Annelise. Always love ya posts. XO.
Thank you❤️
I could copy and paste this piece onto my own Substack and it would 100% reflect how I'm feeling. I appreciate your post and hope you can muddle through amd make sense of everything you're feeling x
Thank you! I think it really is an overwhelming time of year for so many people, even apart from large life changes.
5. I know that it's "Sabrina," not because I've seen "Sabrina" - I haven't - but because I was, a lifetime ago, on Tumblr too much.
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And this is why we love you, Shar.
Thanks for this. It really resonated with me right now. Take all the time you need.
You’re so welcome, and thank you.
"Sabrina," when she's in Paris ;) Good post, Annelise. I can feel all of this. Glad you're taking some time off to process and "organize."
Thanks, Mary. I think it will be helpful to not have the pressure of having to say anything helpful for a while.
“And while it’s easier to be angry, most of the time I need to give myself the space to be sad.” Okay, who sent you to read my mail? Praying it’s a fruitful month off for you.
Love that you know yourself well enough to know where it leads. Glad you are taking time to rest and process. Even this is helpful, just modeling that we are not machines. We are people. We have bodies. And we need to listen to them. 🧡
*hug* Hope CC works out for you. I couldn't take the songs, lol. OR the repetition. But I've had friends whose kids have thrived in it. :)