5 Things
mostly stuff that made me cry
While my baby is gaining coordination, moving more adeptly by the day, I feel like I'm forgetting how to walk.
I told a friend it’s like I’m running a three-legged race with a terrible partner every day, and we are losing.
(Who’s the partner? The baby? The lack of sleep? The weird schedules? The medical appointments? No one knows. But my leg is tied up and I keep falling over). There’s a variety of reasons for this, but chasing down answers is sometimes just a pain. The last two weeks have included a re-do of a minor oral surgery, more pain meds than I’ve taken in years, dragging 5 kids into the lab to do routine bloodwork and coordinating childcare for appointments. Bleh.
9/10 times I can pretend like my chronic illness isn’t really a thing, because it’s mostly quiet and I manage it well. But there are some days where I want to kick a wall because it’s stupid. Like when I finally get my labs back and realize it’s possible the reason I’ve been snapping at my kids and being an insomniac …